Why I died

You would never get it. You are not smart enough to understand my thoughts. I am too foolish to convey my idea to you. But I will tell you about my story. Do you want to listen to it?

If the world has no meaning, which means that both life and death are meaningless. But to keep your life, you need meaning for it. We all are slaves of genes, and are controlled to think that all we are doing are based on our own decision, but in fact we did nothing but hear the voice of gene, which is a product made bu the long history of evolution and act accordingly. The second law of thermal mechanics.
The problem of frame. Why you can move? You are thinking that you are thinking. Are you? No, you are not. You are thinking that you are thinking that you are..... After the endless consideration, you found that you are a dream of someone.
If the axioms are destroyed, all the theorem turns to just strings of meaningless symbols, and then there are nothing. Ok, to give meaning to this world, you need some axioms which is strong enough not to be proven to be illusions. But what if, what if the theorem which was deducted from the axioms claim that the axioms are false? You are trapped in a circle of infinity.
To me, everything has meaning, and nothing has meaning. Life is a system which creates nothing. It embodies the shape of the illusions or dreams of some pebbles on the street.
You wouldn't get it. But it's ok. You don't have to know that. I am too smart and at the same time, I am too stupid. I am trapped in the jail of platonic world.
I am not sad. I am not angry. All I have in my mind is nothing, and nothing exist only in our consciousness. If there are nothing, nothing is not there. I am not talking about the hole. The three world consist the universe, and it has self-referential structure, the ring of whole nothingness.
When you are everything, you are nothing. But the contrary does not stand. White noise looks like as if it contained nothing, but it is everything. I held my ears in the explosion of silence, and the strong light of darkness burnt my eyes. And then?

Hahah

Ok. I've got to go now.